Sunday, May 22, 2011

Broken heart


It hurts so much. So much that I want to hurt myself with the broken glass. Why you're so mean to me. I have done everything, and I just don't get what else you actually want from me? All this while we are together, am I being bad to you? You break my heart to the pieces that are impossible to be picked up again. And all that left with me is a very little hope that one day you will love me back. Is it possible? You know how bad I need you cause I just couldn't live without you. Without you I won't graduate. My love amylase, I never missed our dates everyday at the lab, even on the weekend, but why you're so mean?

Hmm.. a little drama with my enzyme. Yeah, we were just having a big fight and I don't know how to face him again tomorrow..Arrgghh!! He never know how to please me. Indeed he never did! I've never been so upset with my study. From elementary school, high school and undergraduate studies, how difficult the subjects, I always passed the exam with flying colours. Except for some papers in my third year that dragged away my pointer back then, but still I graduated with first class degree. And now, everything's seem so difficult. Up to this point I have no positive result at all. I'm so worried, sad and disappointed. Everytime I did the assay, read the OD, I can't help to feel so depressed. Just like a broken hearted person. When will all this end? i'm tired..

p/s: dear Allah, please show me the way..

Monday, May 9, 2011

Moments at home..

That nervous moment when I left the unfinished works, bought airplane tickets, packed and went home.
...and finally realizing that that's actually the very best decision on that tensed week.

That wonderful moment when I can wake up and sleep whenever I want without feeling guilty.
...and really enjoying this moment to the fullest.

That refreshing moment when waking up in the morning with the harmonious sounds of crowing roosters and showering with the ice-cold water from the hill.
...and enjoying this moment too because I can never find it anywhere else.

That funny moment when I was hiding behind mum's back to prevent from crashing with the flying insects (often at night).
...cause I hate them especially bugs and roaches...euww!

That peace moment when there's no one in the house could make me angry.
...and thinking that I always know that my parents love me, but will never know how much.

That awkward moment when I was watching TV with my mum and the Mother's Day advertisement came out, yet realizing that I couldn't find a way to wish her happy mother's day.
...and finally it ended as I wasn't wishing her but instead requesting her marvelous 'laksa' :P

That odd moment when my mum trusting me to drive alone for the first time ever.
...but I knew that she actually worried so bad that she kept reminding me to not step on the gas.

That scary yet anxious moment when I was driving alone, at night, on the quiet, dark, long road on the way back home.
...but it was actually a great moment, imagining that I was driving my on car.

That annoying moment when my dad keep advising me the same point every time I went back home.
...yet realized I missed his advises so much that finally I regret to feel that way :(

That moment when all problems are vanished, only can be found in a very special place..














called.....












H.O.M.E.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

The moment


You are so sweet in your own way. It's a beautiful moment that I've been waiting for. I can feel your presence although you're not here. But like I said, you're not in front of me but you're in me. I just can't describe this feeling, cause I've never felt it before. But deep inside, I'm grateful that I met you. Thanks


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