Epiphany

I think yesterday was the most productive day in my entire life. Started after the sunset, I've sort of had an epiphany. My spirit was like being lifted up and ideas were coming like a water flow, I had no idea where those were coming from. This moment is really hard to come, so I would never waste a second. So, I was so motivated to continue writing my first paper. That productive state actually wasn't stopped when I woke up in the morning. I have no idea where's in my body cells those energies were stored. So I have been working like...

Nuisance

Human always forget the ocean-wide gifts that Allah has showered upon them. A dust-tiny test can make them surrender. Astaghfirullah. God, please forgive me. I woke up to a sad dream this morning. It was really disturbing I can still feel the sadness around. Then, as routine I went to the lab to find out that the electricity went off last night. My column!! For your record, I have been running a HPLC since 7 days ago. So when the power suddenly gone, the machine was shut down and it might damage the column. And I don't know what came over me, perhaps the dream, I was feeling so down. And that...

Small dots

So there was one day, me, Fizah and Kak Tim have been wondering about why our supervisor has always wanted us to go early to the lab and indeed he could turn to be a monster if he doesn't see his student by 8.30am. Kak Tim came out with her theory of the early birds, the early birds got to catch more worms. But somehow, whenever we relate it to the real situation, we found a dead end. Like students that arrive at the lab at 10am, they still graduate and get the scroll. Birds that go out at 10am still get the worms. Then, this sort of 'discussion'...

Delusion

I dreamed last night. It was my wedding, But the groom did not show up. Off course he won...

A dandelion seed

Yesterday I have been asked a question which I haven't heard for quite a while; 'what is your ambition Hasmaliana?'. And by ambition it means what I want to be after graduate. I was like, gosh! I  never thought someone would ask me this question again at my age. I'm quite surprised and a bit disappointed with myself, cause I actually find that it is hard to answer that question. I don't even know what I want to do after grad school. Sometimes I imagine myself as a lecturer, being in the lecture theater and having my own lab conducting...

Bittersweet

The sky was clear today. As clear as my mind. I couldn't remember, when was the last time that this feeling struck me. Or maybe I never felt like this before, I'm not sure of it too. But the feeling is very soothing, and I didn't realized that suddenly I smiled for no reason.  I am a person who is good at recovering from a sudden emotional disturbance. I love that part of me. Even I will become more productive when I'm stress. So I have been thinking a lot recently. I was trying to find the reason of everything that happened. And I feel...