Am I confident?

So, I change my blog template today. What do you think? Like it? umm.. Never mind cause I love it. Hehe.. Thanks to Anis for giving me the idea. Well, attempting to put my own picture on the header, it's a little bit like what I can call 'promoting' myself. haha.. I think I can build my confidence and self esteem by doing that, don't you think so? Yeah, you know I'm shy (okay, you can throw up now..hehe) but I don't know if I'm still, because many people said that I'd changed. Just wait and see, if I don't remove it in two days, means that I'm confident enough to stand imagining that there are maybe hundreds of people out there now know how the author looks like (I know, I know, it won't reach hundred, just exaggerating that, hehe). Oh wait, I should say a week instead cause tomorrow I'll be going back to hometown, means no internet until next Tuesday. So, we'll see!

Speaking of self esteem, today my confidence was tested. Huh, I don't know suddenly out of nowhere there was a visiting lecturer I reckon, came to my lab. FYI, he's a Germans and he's with other lecturers escorting him. Then one of the lecturer asked me to explain to him about the lab. No, I must tell you this, HE WAS ACTUALLY ASKING FIZAH, BUT GUILTLESSLY, SHE PASSED IT TO ME AND TOLD HIM THAT I'M THE LAB'S LEADER! Gosh! Since when I'm the lab's leader? All faces turned to me now. What should I say? What should I say? Help me!! I really felt like screaming at her, why appointed me! Never mind, I saved the revenge, and with the sweetest smile, I welcomed him, "Hello, this is Genetic Lab. Basically we're doing bla bla bla..." I could feel that I was started blushing, and shaking. Then, I realized that presentation and interview were far more easier than this. After finished with the bla bla bla (I couldn't even know what I've said) the lecturer said to me, 'thanks, you're doing great'. huh.. Thank God. At least he made me felt better after that.

So, I learned one thing today. Experience talking with foreign lecturer and thank God he seemed to understand what I was explaining. The good think about it, that I feel relief because he can understand my English, so my English is not that bad. And I can easily understand him too. I can feel that my confidence was increased by one bar today (mcm IT girl pulak. hehe..)

p/s: Fizah, you owe me one!