Unspeakable

This indescribable sense I have been feeling these days..
It is such a nuisance, yet very consoling,
Cozy..
Sometimes it felt so guilty feeling this way,
But there's something about it that makes me feel so contented,
Like a guilty pleasure, can I say that?
It even emerges in my dreams,
Yet I hate this feeling,
I hope it can get away from me..