It's time to make mistake..

I just realized today that I have wasted my supervisor's money (about rm1000) just because of a very stupid mistake that I did to my experiment! oh my gosh! How silly I am! The kit's price was about rm2000 and half of it was wasted because I forgot to add 0.5 microliter of inducer into the reaction! (if you don't understand what I mean, the point is because of only 0.5 microliter inducer that I forgot to add, the experiment was a rubbish. If you have no idea how much the microliter is, it's a very tiny drop of water). But, luckily the particular work is not actually in my research scope. huhu.. I haven't told anyone, never, except my housemates. So to my labmates, if you guys read this, please pretend that you never know about this ok..hehe..

So, for me, research (or generally studying) is all about doing mistakes and learn from it. Am I saying this to comfort myself from this guilty feeling? hehe..kind of..but actually, it's true, isn't it? Say a baby learning to walk. He will never walk if he didn't fall at his first step. You won't get stronger if you never fail. We were always told to not fail because people will look down on you. But believe me that sometimes failure can be the best teacher. If you recall, Thomas Alva Edison took 10,000 trials before he could make a long lasting light bulb that we're having now. Instead of admitting to having failed so many times, he said, "I have not failed, I've just found 10,000 ways how not to make a lightbulb." So, don't afraid to make mistake but analyze the failure, make a change and then try again.

Feeling, a priceless gift..

There are so many things in this world that can't be seen, nor can be touched and the existence are unexplainable. They are here but we never know how they were created in the first place, what are the building block that construct them and why they sometime come and suddenly vanish. But one thing for sure, they do colour the world. So, can you guys guess few things that possess these characters? Light, wind, sound, smell, desire are few examples. And the one that I want to talk about is FEELING.

Feeling lays beneath every person but do we know where the place is? No. We feel happy and sad, we feel love and hate, we feel enthusiastic and lazy. In certain moment, we love it when they are around, though sometimes they can be very annoying. The magic is they can't be chased and they will come anytime even though they are not needed.

So, last week, I experienced lots of feelings; happy, sad, angry, surprise. Here's my story:

I got my scholarship backdated from August, means I'm a billionaire! I was very surprised when I checked my account balance and suddenly I thought what I'm gonna do with that money. haha.. Funny that I never had such that huge amount. However, half of it should be saved to repay the allowance given by my supervisor.

So, that weekend I went to the mall and aim for a camera. hehe.. So finally, for the first time, I bought a digital camera. It's Sony Cybershot DSC-TX5 waterproof, freeze-proof, dust-proof, shock-proof, touch screen and it's pink! hehe.. I didn't do much survey before buying it actually. It just happened that I went to Sony shop, browsing over the cameras displayed and decided to buy it. And, I was happy! =)




Before that, I was having lunch at Kenny Rogers with Bai, Fizah and Samson. Actually we knew that the service was quite slow since the first time we ate there. However, we were craving for their marvelous macaroni and cheese, so we can't help to decide to eat there. And like always, we can't be patient anymore, thus we wrote a love note to the manager..hehe..

Then, Sunday, I prepared nasi ayam for lunch with my housemates, Fizah and Bai. It was actually our first time, but not bad. The taste is perfect, like professional cook. hehe.. Since we have bought a fridge, so that will be the turning point for us to start cooking. And again, I was happy! =)



Seems that the entire last week was perfect. However, some of my lab works didn't go well. It made me down, but I knew that research can't be smooth all the time. Never I think. And the failure actually wake me up from my comfort zone, make me realize that there's no life without test. God test me with His unique ways to tell me to be grateful. If you look in other way, sad and angry feeling are given by God to test our patience. Sometimes, no, I think I am always feeling angry with others especially my friends when they did something which kill my patience. But at the end, they are still my friends and what's the point to be angry while I still need them.

So good and bad feelings are all gifts from God, priceless gifts. It depends on us, the way you think, to control it and grateful for be given the feeling.

p/s: lazy mode..can't thinking of doing lab works anymore cause will be heading back to hometown tomorrow night! Can't wait! =)

Go green..

This will be a longer weekend because today is Deepavali, means public holiday. Today, I am having an amazing day. From the moment I opened my eyes, I could feel the great feeling. I started my day with praying off course. Then early in the morning, right the warm sunlight welcoming the day, we were deciding to enjoy the fresh air by a little bit different way than the usual, by cycling. I just knew that in UTM we can borrow the bicycles from the guard. Thanks to our vice chancellor for his kind sponsoring rm10k for providing this facilities to the students. So, we were cycling around the lake and the herb garden, enjoying the smell of freshly cut grass though the smell of rubbish truck that passed by had spoiled it for second or two. Never mind, cause we were so environmental friendly today. Then we were cycling around the residential college, went to every corner that we never have chance to explore before. It was so refreshing. Once I was nearly forgotten all of messy stuffs in the lab. Feeling as free as the birds. As healthy as a baby.




Cycling is one of the cardio exercises, like swimming. Cardio means its good for our heart. When cycling, our heart rate increases thus increasing the blood supply. So, the risk of having heart diseases could be avoided. Furthermore, off course cycling will burn excess fats and help losing weight. A fact that I just knew about cycling after google it just now is that our body will release endorphin which known to cause pleasure and eliminate the bad moods. Yeah, that would be the answer why I was having a great feeling all day =)

During cycling, I saw someone was riding a horse and I haven't seen as so much car as the usual. Probably due to public holiday. Then I was thinking, how peaceful the world is if the car doesn't ever exist. If only bicycles and horses are transports that ever existed, there would be no pollution, no traffic congestion and no obese people.

Then, after cycling, I went to lab to screen my clones. And alhamdulillah, I have got the second clone! weeeeee!!!! :D

Enjoying weekend!

I just went back from watching Hisss. And guess how was the movie? It was totally suck. So, people, if you are intending to watch Hisss, I'll not recommend it. The plot is a mess and ridiculous, too much blood, the snakes are way too fake, the sound effects could probably causes heart attack and I ended up walking out from the cinema with so many unanswered questions in my head. What a waste of money. Again! Last week, I watched a so-not-worth-watching movie too, which is Cuti-Cuti Cinta. Sorry producer, it was boring and I couldn't help to fall asleep. What a waste! Oh..

Tomorrow would be the last day to enjoy weekend. Resting body and mind in the swimming pool sounds like a perfect plan for tomorrow. I hate when Sunday comes. I wish Saturday would be bottomless. I mean endless. Hehe.. Just remembered the bottomless drink we had at Nandos last Friday night, when having girl's night out. That day, I was really really planning to do window shopping. Damn it. The rm15 blouse was too attractive that I couldn't resist to buy it. So, I would blame Tized for selling at such a low price..haha..

Enough with movies. No more movies. No more shopping too. Cause I want to go home next week for raya haji and meet Qisya. Haven't met my adorable niece for 4 months. She must be grown up and clever now. Qisya, wait for auntie ok! Can't wait to see you!
Some pics of Nur Qisya Arissa..Enjoy! :)

Pantang nampak camera mesti nak posing..

Notty too !!

p/s: Btw, alhamdulillah..I already got one of the clones =)

Journey..

Lately, I was having some problems while working in lab, on getting to clone a gene into a bacteria. It's been months and I can't still figure out what was wrong. Is it the way I handle it or is the enzymes had damaged. But I'm pretty sure that there's nothing wrong with the enzymes. So I need to keep optimizing the conditions of each of the cloning stages. I am really hoping that by the time I have to go working in other lab, soon, I already manage to get the clone and the protein can be produced in soluble form. When thinking of it, of how much time left before I go, I start to panic. What is on my mind is get the clone, get the clone and get the clone. Someone talked to me the last two days and said perhaps when I just eager to achieve the target, I miss the small things. Too small to see but has a huge effect. So, I have to go back to the very basic principle. Look onto the every single details, understand each process and begin the troubleshooting. Now I have started practicing it and I realize that I have learnt more than before.

So is the life. When the world turns down on you, just go back to the nature (fitrah). Every soul will find peace if we remember The One who created the mankind. Pray, honest, be kind to people, give a hand to the weak, respect others and forgive. Yes, it is basic, all of us learned it at school, we have to practice good deeds, but do we actually practice it and do we really know why we were told to do that? For me, if you good with people, it will turn back to you. Let say if I am having problem in cloning for months while other colleague which do exactly the same work can get it in just few weeks, there must be wrong with my past behaviour. Maybe I didn't help people or I didn't forgive someone or didn't apologize for talking behind their back.

Hmm.. So, no more drMicrob cause I feel I do not deserve the title yet as I haven't managed to solve the simplest work in Molecular Biology which is cloning. I'm quite upset because there's much more challenged works waiting once I successfully clone the gene. However, I realize that this is called the journey of life, coloured with problems and challenges. They do make our path difficult, but at the end, the success will be more meaningful =)

Love your supervisor..aha!!

When supervisor is not around, going to place miles away from here for a quite long time, it was kind of happy and free surrounding at first. We were free to go anywhere we liked, for instance lunch at KFC without afraid of he might calling us, going to Jusco to do shopping when there's too much of free time (during the working hours, off course), playing games or updating blog during incubation time (obviously I did that), going to surau and never come back (wirid panjang a.k.a. zzzzzz) and enjoying movies at night without afraid that he might be asking, have you read this journal. It sounds crazy, but well, who wants to miss the once-in-a-year chance of working in the lab without being supervised. Nobody does. And we would dream that this will last longer. But believe me, it actually goes to the other way around! Why would I say that? It is because I feel that working with no supervisor around is like studying for the next year exam. Could you imagine that? There is no incoming force at all. So, now I realize that the every-week-meeting is not arranged for nothing. It really helps us to do experiments faster in order not to feel embarrass when there's no results to be presented to the supervisor. So, don't curse your supervisor when he/she keep pushing you to produce data although that makes you tense and want to jump out of window. But keep believing that without him/her, you won't graduate.

p/s: some friend start feeling bored when our supervisor is going outstation too long ;P

Why English?

What's up Mr blog? Today is weekend, and me, at lab, as always. After settling up everything in the house, laundry and etcetera etcetera, I went to lab with Fizah. Once again, I wish I have a car so that she won't need to wait for me (because I have problem with wake up early in the morning). I love to enjoy weekend in the house but since celcom broadband running hell slow, it induces me to go to the lab. Like I said, lab is my second home, but it seems like it is going to be my first home. And the house, just like a hotel. I go home to change cloth, take a bath, eat dinner and sleep. Hahaha.. I have never imagined that I will ever live this kind of life. But are there any other choices? No. So, be grateful and sacrifice for something that is worth sacrificing for :)

You will be wondering why all my posts are in English right? Sorry that if English will make you annoy to read, so if you annoy, don't read..hehe..because I'll try to consistently write in English. Why? My English is not superb, yes I know that. But I believe that practice make perfect. The last time I wrote an English assay was during the SPM, it was 2004. And imagine, this is 2010, it has been 6 years. I'm afraid that I will lose the skill if I never think of writing again. Actually, I never thought of it at first. Then, one day, the day I created this blog, I found a blog of a friend of my friend. It's in English. I was just amazed by her posts. She's very good in her words and I just envy her. I wanted to be as good as her, I mean good in writing in English. So I think, if I blog in English, my language may be improved one day, I hope so. So, drMicrob was created. But, I can not read her blog anymore. She has restricted her blog to invited readers only :( I'm a little bit upset. I don't want to be her follower either, cause she will read my blog, and it will entirely make me embarrass for my broken English. I just want to read her blog without even she knows about it. Is it possible?

It's me at the lab. Can't find me?